It's been awhile!

Well, hello there!


It's been awhile since I've popped in here, I know.


I honestly can't believe it's been over a month since I last posted.


I even had a spring equinox message (mostly) ready to go last month.


Definitely thought I'd publish it.


Absolutely thought I'd write others, too.


But it turned out that I just didn't have the capacity.


Over these last few weeks, I've felt a lot of guilt about not communicating more with you.


I love sharing with you. I love hearing from you. I love being in community with you.


And also.


I had a heftier load to manage these last few weeks, personally. 


Nothing life-altering. But enough to force me to prioritize a little differently for a short while. 


And whether or not you can relate to the business-owner side of things, I'm guessing you've experienced some similar times—when you were dealing with too much at once, and you knew you couldn't keep up with "business as usual."


When you had to say "Ok, all of these things matter to me, but I'm not going to be able to be present with any of them if I act like I have the capacity that I just don't have right now."


These are tough periods, I get it.


I've felt like a bad friend. Like an absent partner. Like a failure as a business owner.


But those feelings really come from capitalist expectations that we can prioritize everything equally, all of the time, without any concern for our own wellbeing in the process. 


You are not a bad friend or family member. You are not a failure.


You are a human, constantly being asked to process the human condition, all while it often feels like the world is burning (and, let's be honest, in a lot of ways it quite literally is). 


It's ok to let some things go for awhile. To prioritize what needs are most pressing. 


You don't have to be everything for everyone, all of the time (or ever). 


If you've been feeling overwhelmed lately, I want to encourage you to see this as information. 


Use this info to help yourself slow down and make whatever choices you need to survive, to function, to prioritize in different ways.


You can take breaks. You can put a pause on things. 


And remember that it may not always feel like this much of a struggle. There is hope on the horizon.


For now, take care of yourself. Be willing to receive love from your trusted people. And know that your worth doesn't change, even if your priorities sometimes need to.